I have loved humanity. I have been betrayed by humanity. I have loved humanity more deeply from knowing her cruelty. There's darkness in the world I refused to accept as a child. I feel old in the evening when the sun sets when the rest of the world goes to bed. I feel the gray hairs sprouting and the wrinkles carving themselves into my face. I watch the smoothness of my skin dapple and splotch. It was only a moment ago I wondered if I would ever feel like an adult. How I have aged today , this year , the last